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It’s been 4 days since rapper PnB Rock was murdered in Roscoe’s Chicken & Waffles in Los Angeles and his brother, PnB Meen has just opened up about how it’s affected him. In an emotional Instagram post, the rapper who’s only a year younger than his brother said he wished he had been there because he would have had his back like he always does.

“You was the only one who believed I can do what you do,” he captioned his post. “I can’t stop crying bro why u ain’t have me with you. I always have ya back an front an sides .. please Give me the strength to do this….With all my soul ima carry. Stand on Business, An get you right why u resting my brother. This my first message to you of many. I can’t believe this shit.”

“I looked up to you . Everything you did Rock I was in aw. Rock I’m sorry bro Whyyyyy. like why u leave me to bro . They took you out of all people. Why not me Man??? my life always been shit until you made It . I never thought you would leave broooo why wtff man . I can’t even write , I’m shaking my stomach tight, I can’t see I can’t eat I’m die’n slow bro.”

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He concluded: “Noooooooo man no no no Rock I can’t believe im posting this bro . Please Rockkkk come back . Rock. Im lost but I’m active my word Rock I love you big brother with my whole entire Heart an soul. Rock Gone like wtfffffffff. Im sorry it wasn’t me . Why they take The one that provides for the whole family. your daughters. damn Rock Nooo. I GOT YOU. I For An I. Im my Brothers Keeper.”

Many have blamed his girlfriend Stephanie Sibounheuang for sharing his location which took place under an hour before he was killed. It caused contention with people split over their feelings on the matter with people like Nicki Minaj saying rappers should know better than to share their location after what happened to Pop Smoke. And not missing a chance to take a jab at her nemesis, Cardi B said the woman shouldn’t be blamed and that she doubts people were looking at her Stories. She said people sit outside plotting all the time.

The security guard that gave him CPR before paramedics arrived spoke to Rolling Stone magazine saying, “I did what anybody, I hope, would do for me,” he said. “I was telling him, ‘Be calm, be calm, get control of your breathing. Don’t trip on what you thought you seen, get control of your breathing.’ And then his breathing declined. It went all the way down. I think he was gone. He was just gone.” He says he was told what to do by a 911 operator while on Rock’s girlfriend’s phone with her shouting in the background. “She was screaming and didn’t know what to do,” he said. “The robbery happened fast. They took some items. He had multiple chains on.  Ice T says there are rappers who forego chains in LA because the city is dangerous.

As it stands, pawn shops have been put on alert about the chain and police are hopeful it will help lead to the arrest of the perpetrators.