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Chrissy Teigen has a lot to reflect on these days after coming to terms with her cyberbullying past and of course COVID but she took a moment to look back at her marriage to John Legend in a new Instagram post. She said their early days together she was basically a “functioning alcoholic.”
Reflecting on the restaurant the two patronized in the East Village in the early days of their relationship, Teigen said, We’ve been going to @frankrestaurant for…man, maybe 13, 14 years now?? we used to live just a couple blocks away, right across from the hell’s angels in the east village. john had a basement apartment with a roommate and I used to sneak cigarettes (ew) through the little half window that lined up with the sidewalk. basically a window where you could only see people’s shoes.”
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She wrote about how she never missed a Thursday so she could have their “lasagna verde.” She said her excessive day drinking would lead her to feel self-conscious about the hats she would wear thinking people were looking at her saying they looked stupid. “I’d sit there with my multiple double vodka sodas and get day drunk by myself (this is not a brag lol I was basically a functioning alcoholic),” she wrote. “then buy hats I didn’t like or need at urban outfitters. I still can’t wear hats for some reason. I feel like everyone is judging my hat and I end up screaming ‘I KNOW, IT IS STUPID YOU’RE RIGHT’ and they’re like ‘what? we didn’t even say anything???’”
She said in December that she was giving up drinking after getting a book about quitting in a culture obsessed with drinking socially. “I was done with making an a– of myself in front of people (I’m still embarrassed), tired of day drinking and feeling like s–t by 6, not being able to sleep,” Teigen wrote at the time, adding, “I have been sober ever since.”
This is going to be a tough time for Teigen to be trying to be sober as she had a miscarriage last September. People have been so adamantly going after her that that whole story got forgotten and she wanted the public to know that she is still reeling from that loss. She admitted she had been feeling “slightly down lately.” She said “It kind of started when I was thinking of my book caption and typed out ‘my third baby is here!!’ Then [I] realized my third baby will never be here.”
“I don’t really feel like I fully processed Jack and now that I don’t have the alcohol to numb it away, things are just…there, waiting to be acknowledged,” she wrote. “I guess what I’m saying here is life is so f*cking complicated. And get the lasagna??? Wow this was a rollercoaster !!!!!”
We’re glad to see that she’s chosen to be sober and hopefully with that decision she’ll be able to process her past and even future decisions better. And it’s a good thing she hasn’t let her miscarriage cause her to pick up the habit all over again.
