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Nick Cannon lost a long time friend of his and rapper that was signed to his label, Ryan Bowers to suicide this week which has appeared to be enough to possibly push him over the edge. He said that he had been contemplating continuing his own existence on this planet and said this “powerful warrior” actually had the courage to do it. This comes at a time where Cannon was dropped from his longtime television home of Viacom, who he’s been with over 20 years and received the announcement that his network television talk show, slated to begin this fall will not air this year.

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Just when I thought it couldn’t get any worse… 2020 is definitely the most fucked up year I’ve ever witnessed! After waking up & barely rising from my own dark contemplation of continuing my physical existence on this planet, this powerful warrior actually had the balls to do it. I’ve said it once and I will say it again, this was the strongest dude I’ve ever met! Just over a year ago a San Diego Police Officer rushed in his home and unjustifiably shot him placing him in a coma for months. I stood by his bedside and promised him that if he made it out & fought the good fight that I would make his dream come true and put his album out and share his story with the world. He fought and fought, he woke up, they stitched him up, he learned to walk and talk again and within months we were back in the studio recording. Even through his strength he would whisper to me that “Everything Still Hurts”. His music was definitely his safe haven and it was amazing. Paying for lawyers, putting money in his pocket, even putting the music together all meant nothing because I feel like I failed my little brother. The Cops will get away with shooting another kid, everyone will just look at this as yet another loving farewell post, but to me @ryanbowersob was so much more than that. Once again my brother you have put this world in perspective for me. You would do that quite often because I never understood how someone who was experiencing sooo much pain could still laugh and smile through it all. This photo was the last time we seen each other in person. It was your first show back! Soldout crowd in our hometown San Diego and you rocked it!! You were so happy!! Proved to so many that you could do it and that you were Super Human! The greatest comeback I ever saw!! We almost made it little bro! But I guess even flying Super Heros have to land eventually. But I am certain that your energy will never die and your Spirit is eternal, so I ask you still to forgive me for letting you down Warrior. I can’t help but think if I wasnt so engulfed in my own bullshit I could’ve been there for you when you finally took your life after several attempts… Fuck this place!! #CantWin #ForLosing🙏

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Just a few days ago, Nick Cannon first refused to apologize for remarks he made, considered to be anti-Semitic and then chose to do so after Viacom chose to drop him. Experiencing loss is certainly not going to help things. In fact, suicide rates have been up since the start of this pandemic. Tamar Braxton just attempted suicide the other night and country singer Daniel Lee Martin and actor Hagen Mills from FX’Baskets actually committed suicide during the time of this pandemic.

Being locked in at home happens to bring out some of the worst of people, from domestic violence, such as Gigolos star Ash Armand killing his girlfriend and Bryshere Gray beating his wife to thoughts of suicide, as is the case with Cannon. At this point, he’s been through a lot and we’re praying for him to feel better. And on a personal note, I will add that for those who are after Cannon with torches and knives, often largely on one side of the political aisle, please keep that same energy for both Roger Stone, who this morning called a black journalist, Mo Kelly a “negro,” the President’s senior campaign official Mercedes Schlapp for tweeting a video including the N word where she still happens to be employed and lastly the President for the recent video he tweeted with someone shouting “white power” that he has yet to apologize for. I’m also tired of rhetoric that constantly is attacking black culture from people who want Nick Cannon cancelled with blind spots for their own issues. I’ll also be binge watching Wild N’ Out until further notice.