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Tamar Braxton has had a rather rocky pandemic by attempting to commit suicide a couple months ago being found unresponsive in her LA hotel room, moments before she was scheduled to record a Youtube show. She went from that to breaking up with her boyfriend, David Adefeso and having a restraining order filed against her from him, getting released from her WeTV contract after stating she’s overworked and underpaid and she’s now ready to speak about the whole ordeal. She stated in an extensive Instagram post that she’s been struggling with mental health “for some time now” and suffered a significant amount of “pain” over the last decade.
“God thank you for saving me! You know my true heart,” she began. “Despite what the world may think of me, you kept me here for a reason. You are a God of second chances, and this second chance I won’t take for granted. The world can often be a dark place but I must resort to you for my light.”
“Ladies, have you ever felt like you put all your time and love into your children, job, relationship and family but often forgot to love yourself? That is where I have been for the past few years,” she continued. “I believe I have put a lot of time and effort in loving and giving myself my all to everything else but myself. I have allowed myself to stay in toxic situations including work environments.”
“I’ve allowed my talents to be used for the wrong reasons. I have allowed myself to be used in too many ‘angry black girl narratives.’ I’m not angry at all,” she added. “I have been battling mental health for some time now, and let me tell y’all [it] is not a joke. Nor is it a reason for anyone to call you ‘crazy.’ I am praying for anyone that is on this same battle.”
Tamar currently had a docuseries on WeTV as her last project with the network that begins with a happier time in her last relationship when she and Adefeso were still together. At least we were lead to believe things were happier then. She says she wants to “personally fight for brown girls to have more ownership and not just be a slave to the industry.”
“Black women are the unvalued and unprotected,” she wrote. “I am on a never ending battle to be the best Tamar Braxton I can be. God has brought me through a lot so I would like to pass it on to use my voice to help brown women and ALL women in these similar situations. We all have the opportunity to evolve. For [sic] now on it’s me vs. me.”
Her docuseries began with the couple disagreeing over abstaining from sex. It then turned into her saying the network was trying to make her be portrayed as an angry black woman. It was recommended she visit a rage/wreck room, which did not go over well with her. “That’s for angry people,” she told her creative coach, Goli Samii. “I’m not mad at or about anything,” she insisted. “Y’all want me to be an angry Black woman? Do I have to be an angry Black woman in every f—ing series?”
“Every Black person don’t want to fight,” she said. “Every Black girl don’t want to fight each other. I ain’t throwing no drinks in nobody’s face, I’m not fighting my sisters, I’m not fighting them girls from The Real, I’m not fighting nobody but the devil. How about that?”
“I can’t do the ignorance anymore,” she said. “I don’t want to watch it on TV, and I don’t want to be a part of it.”
We wish Tamar the best in finding herself and are happy to hear she’s been working hard at getting herself back together.
